Today, I was so tired because I had a one on one meeting with a manager of HR department over one hour. Actually, I had had a lot of complaints about my boss for years, but I had been patient for fear of retaliation from my boss. I, however, came to feel wrong lately because of stress. So, I made up my mind and emailed to the manager last week. The manager replied to me soon, and we had the meeting today. This confession required me to take a risk that I might be transferred to another department against my will.
I prepared for the meeting yesterday afternoon. I organized my thoughts which finally covered 6pcs of papers. It was so stressful as well as tiring to remember the disagreements with my boss, but I had no choice but to do it for fixing the relationship.
In the meeting, I pointed out some items which I wanted my boss to correct. Not only that, I told that it was too difficult to build trust with my boss.
The manager listened to them without showing any feelings. I was wondering if he might be fed up with hearing such complaints from many employees in our company. He also maintained neutrality, that was bureaucratic. If I were in his shoes, it would be stressful to keep on listening to others’ complaints…
As a matter of fact, I was not sure what impression he had about my complaints. He concluded that it was not a harassment, but just a miscommunication between my boss and me. Then, he asked me if I went see a psychiatrist, that made me feel that he wouldn’t take them seriously unless I had a mental disease.
After the meeting, I thought it might be better to give up repairing the relationship with my boss and find another job. Also, it was a waste of time to wait for the situation to change…
This is why, I will start preparing for a career change. As the first step, I’m contacting to agencies. I’ll be busy for the rest of this year because I’ll spare time for a career change besides my current job, but I’ll make it a rule to keep a diary in English every day.
What one likes, one will do well.